Trying to Move On

I have to get going
I can't stay here
I cry every time
I remember the moments
You were never there
Right by my side
My tears need to dry
I need to stop crying
I'm still going nowhere
With the thought of you and her
In the back of my mind
Just standing and waiting for you
Just beginning to care
My life is on hold
Just waiting for you
Even though you're never there
I just want to know
Why it's her and not me
Why I just can't measure up to
What you want or need
And why every time
I think of you
I want to cry myself to sleep

My worst fear is not what you think
It's not that I'm afraid of letting go
I'm just afraid of holding on
Comparing every guy I meet
To the one and only you
I need this chance
To take a step forward
It's okay if it turns out
Not to be so great in the end
At least I'm moving forward
And not sitting here
Waiting for you
To begin to care