A Thousand Times Over

I can convince myself a thousand times
That I'm the one who's right
Tell myself I really shouldn't
Think of you tonight.

Slap my wrist and scold myself
For thinking of your face
You're just a boy, a simple boy
You're easy to replace.

Expendable, exchangeable
Only good for fun
A useless boring burdan
Once its course has run.

So I tell the world we're better off
Going seperate ways
These feelings will subside
And I'll find my better days.

I told you that we're done
And I saw it in your eyes
Your heart broke in front of me
And you began to cry.

I tell myself I'm fine
That this is what is best
But a certain stubborn part of me
Doesn't let me think the rest.

I'm now exposed to all my thoughts
And find a tragic sight
I may not be as "fine"
As I thought I was tonight.

My heart is broken, I see now
I don't know how to cope
And I just can't rid this feeling
Of this neverending...hope...

I don't know what I'm hoping for
But I think I must confess
If what I did was right
I think this would hurt less.

Four months now, almost four
Since the day I let you go
Was this better?
It's hard to say, I still don't really know

I know one thing, only one
And I don't know if it's right
But I'd give anything to be the one
Who's at your side tonight.

I can convince myself a thousand times
But the feeling still remains
That I'd give anything and everything
To be with you again.