I'm sick of this self-doubt,
and tired of always being left out.
I hate the time we used to share,
and still sick of trying not to care.
I wish you would leave my heart alone,
go find someone else, or break your own.
Cause I don't want mine to hurt anymore,
mines already aching, bruised, and sore
I'm so stressed, but I guess you know.
I wish I could finally just let you go.
Do you know how long I've been like this?
Every night I sleep, dreaming of your kiss,
I don't know how it feels, but still I wish.
This feeling is driving me crazy inside;
To the point which I just cant decide,
just can't decide which pain is worse,
dying, or living with this heart-breaking curse.
Every morning I wake up, wishing you were there.
Lately when I daydream, I just tend to stare,
at the undecorated wall, without pictures of you.
It really bothers me, when I don't know what to do.
Sometimes I sit in my room all alone,
waiting for you to call me on the phone.
And sometimes I hope you will drop by,
I know you won't, but I'd never ask why.
