Love, for all its glory and fame
And I have been forced to the bitter end of it.
The kind of love that makes you feel empty
The kind of love that leaves you flooded in tears every night
The kind of love that makes you wish your fingers were made of razor-sharp claws so you could rip out your bleeding black heart and present it to the one who's killing you inside
But then, even that's not enough
Because you'll want them to see how the rest of your internal organs can no longer function along with that heart
And so you proceed to rip out everything else down to the tiniest organisms that make up every last inch of your being
You find those organs inside of your organs
Those organelles surrounded by the membrane that's weakening its protection for them as your body weakens with it because you're no longer made of anything
You're so black inside
You're so dead
You've melted away to nothing
And somehow you're happy
Without the ability of sense, you're incapable of feeling
You're incapable of shedding a tear anymore
So you're so f---in’ happy, because you hate crying
You hate the red, puffy eyes
And the nasty snot that plugs up your nostrils
And you hate when there's no shoulder to cry on because you're never here
And I almost hate you because you can't shed a single tear for me
So that happiness then turns to anger
Because all of a sudden you can feel again
And you realize this isn't that truelove type love
I think this is an obsessed type love
The Romeo and Juliet type love
The kind of love that makes you want to shoot yourself in the head type love
The kind of love that makes me want to kill your ex type love
The kind of love that breeds an insanity because it is not a kind type love
But, I want that head-over-heels type love
The "I know you're my sosoul-matetype love
But you tore away my dream my love
So now I'm stuck because I don't have the strength to try to fall for another while I'm going crazy because I'm still not over you my love
You're such a cruel type love.
And I feel completely empty if that's even possible
And my whole being has gone numb.
