Me

Why do i let them hurt me?
why do i care?
why does it seem that everything i do i will regret?

they told me things
and such beautiful things they were
so amazing that i believed them
and so stupid that i still care

in the end i guess I\'m doing this to my self
so instead of loving them,
my dirty loves
i must love the pain only i can bring

you might hate me for it
you might judge me for it
you might shun me for it
but you cant forgive me for it

i do the things i do because i cant deal with the pain other people have brought unto me

my pain i can controle
their pain tears me apart
filling me with hate

and all this blindingly hateful pain must come out
so i take it out on the one i hate

me