Bad dreams that are real life

I'm haunted by my own life chased by my screams

I'm scared to go to sleep because ill have those dreams

I'm hurting and so tired i cant sleep

this pain is cutting into my heart so deep

I'm going back to what i was scared-cold-and paranoid

my past is haunting me with so many memories i try to avoid

i refuse to talk about them because it hurts too much

my past sucked but I'm not going through life using it as a crutch

i wont break i refuse to fall ill survive

most of that Haiti's is dead but the memories are alive

i dont want people to feel sorry for me because of all the crimes committed back then

I'm still the same person bleeding-dying-and covered in the same sin

if only people knew how much i was to blame

they'd never think of me the same

i could've saved a life from sorrow but i never said a word

instead i cowered and blocked out the crying and noises i heard

i feel like closing up and dying so it can all go away

then i wouldn't be awake all night and exhausted all day