My Last Words To You

I want you to know,
that i do not hate you,
that its not your fault,
and that hate is something i just cant do,

i want you to know,
that i am not worth a thing,
that you shouldn't cry,
that I'll never ask 'why?',

i want you to know,
that i don't blame you,
and i want you to know,
that i never will,

i want you to know,
that I'll always be around,
someone to come to,
if you fall to the ground,

i want you to know,
that i don't want you to cry,
i don't want you to be sad,
nor do i want you to be mad,

i want you to know,
that i understand,
and that I'll always be here,
to hold you hand,

i want you to know,
that you did not hurt me,
for i was broken before,
as broken as one can be,

i want you to know,.
that i will not get angry,
that i will not shed a tear,
that sometimes,
i am my biggest fear,

i want you to know,
that i am happy for you,
that I'm happy for her,
and that these words are true,

i want you to know,
that love is a gift,
treasure it forever,
for it will be missed,

i want you to know,
that I'll always love you,
and i wont judge,
anything you do,

i want you to know,
that i smile for you,
look down at her,
and you will too,

i want you to know,
that you didn't hurt me,
and even if you did,
i would never admit it,
especially to thee,

i want you to know,
that it's like I've told you,
sometimes it seems,
you are faced with a decision,
where both choices seem wrong,
but hunni, you will always pull through,

i want you to know,
that however hard it may have been,
you made the right choice,
be proud, stand tall,
one day, your wisdom will be seen,

i want you to know,
i want you to see,
that I'm sorry,
for any pain I've caused you,
and the time you wasted on me,

i want you to know,
that i will miss you,
that even though i hide it,
maybe i lied,
deep down?
it hurts me too

i want you to know,
that hurt goes away,
i want you to know,
that i loved you,
and even to this day...
maybe i still do,

i want you to know,
that these words are for you,
and i want you to smile,
not to be sad,
unlike me,
you are loved.
always.
be glad.

-sarah [star]
16th November 2006