No presence was there

To relive that moment is something i dread every night.
to see the look in others eyes was confusing and the smell of uncertainty was thickening the air, but no presence was there, none but the choice that i had made.
praying to silence the sounds in my head, and struggling to hold back the tears but failed, because no presence was there, none but the judgement that i had cast.
longing for conversation just to put it out of my mind, dreading to hear my name called, refusing to accept the mistake i was making but having to accept the knowledge of gestation, but no presence was there, none but the verdict that i had rendered
changing into reality, nervously awaiting my fate, as finality filled the air, no presence was there, none but the resolution that i had made.
and as i left alone i felt an overbearing feeling of being deserted, i dismissed the tears threatening to fall, but most of all i accepted that no presence was there, none but the fight that i had endured.

*please tell me what u think*