so confused

Sitting here bored don't know what to do saying to myself am i really over you? my mouth says yes but my mind says no i don't know what to do i don't know where to go I'm saying to myself i cant take it no more all these thoughts going through my head maybe i should think about something else instead
or maybe not I'm so confused i don't know should i hide this or let it go should i confront you or let you go this time my mind says yes but my mouth says no I'm thinking about all the things u put me through how it hurt so but when i think about it i just cant let you go
i love you too much i guess but i was told I'm too young to love too young to understand whats going on and i believed it until now, now i know how everybody feels now i know what the deal is about all of the mess all of the stress and pain people go through and now that i understand i don't know what to do i admit i really thought i was in love with you but i guess i wasn't or maybe i was or maybe it was because you were closer to your cousin then you were to ya girl and whether or not u loved me i really couldn't tell i was so confused i didn't know if our love was meant to be i didn't know if i shouldve stayed or fled but i stayed with you hoping it would get better but it got worse you lied you cheated you did it all but i still survived the hurt but now i cant no more i gotta let you go i shouldve told you sooner but i didn't know how i still have love for you and all but i don't love you like that no more you understand? you shouldve just been more of a man now when i look at you i see someone i cant stand oh and you know we can still be friends but don't ever ever expect me to love you again