My thinspiration*

I don't remember a day ever so clear.
Where beauty and grace took over and I could stare into the mirror.
Without insecurities, nor disregard and a frown didn't make my mind.
But no matter what I do the answer I can't seem to find.
I never thought words from another could make such an effect on me .
But as I stare closely I see my body is taking form of me.
Its like those words are just ringing in my head.
As I was engorging myself, I didn't think about every bite I took I just watched where it all lead.
I thought about everything everyone said and now all I can say is I have my thinspiration.
Never eat but do keep hydration.
Everyone looks at these girls that I will someday be and they have a riot. But I say what's the big idea what's wrong with there way of diet?!
I hate everything on my body head to toe
And my metabolism couldn't be anymore slow.
All I have to go on is self doubt,
I wish i could escape from life somehow find a way out!
But right now the future isn't looking bright
Its hard to live without any light.
So will someone please Help me or Save me from myself.