Change for the girl you \"love\"

Now I am lost,
Your angry glances cut deep in my heart,
My tears are received with a bitter remark,
It hurts, can you see?
You are killing the happiness left in me.

I love you as I love no one else,
But this constant anger and yelling has got to stop,
I can not deal with fear in the best part of my life,
You have instilled panic in the girl you say you love,
Am I next to feel against my face a glove?

I want comfort in the boy I call mine,
I do not want fear, sadness and loss of hope,
For I know that no boy can ever be happy with this girl you see?
No boy will ever be happy with a girl like me

Tears again fall down my face,
As I realize that I too have made mistakes,
I can not believe this is what we are now,
I used to come to you for comfort
What do I do and how?

Soon your eyes will fill with abhorrence,
I can not leave you and I will not stay if this continues,
I am at a crossroads of my deliverance.

If you stay and terrorize me more,
I will not look to you at all,
For I know you hate my tears,
And you are giving birth to whole new fears.

Please do not become angry again,
For I just want you to change this,
I do not want you to leave,
I just want to feel safe when I hug my arms around your sleeve.

I want to feel love when I look in your eyes, not hate,
For that is almost all I see now
Is this our fate?

I know I must change, but do I make you fear?
Do I send you into despair only latching to tears?
I know I do wrong and I know I am not the best,
But this is my only test.

Please change for the girl you love,
Do not make me cry alone anymore