Pregnant and Alone

It was the 3rd or 4th time we had gotten together. I really believed that it would last, that you wouldn't leave me. You were my best friend before anything had happened between us. 9 months past and you went to jail. 2 days later I found out some very shocking news. I knew what would happen and how you would react, I told your mom and then the next day you knew. You kept telling me that we'd be together and everything would be OK. That you would stick with me and help.You wanted to talk about when you got out. I came up with 1ooo dollars in a week to get you out. I was still dancing then and you believed in me like no one else did. Your mom and I went to pick you up from jail and you asked me if I would stay the night. We talked about what we were going to do with our new baby. You said you were scared and wasn't ready for a baby, that you already have a son and that you were a terrible father. You said you would help and do what you can. You held me tight while I cried on your shoulder. I am now 4 1/2 months pregnant with your son. i have talked to you twice since you have been out of jail. I am alone in this and I am scared to death. I dint have anyone. For Three years you were there when I needed you and when you were with your other baby's mama you still were there when i really needed you. Why did you leave me? I am so sorry but it isn't all my fault. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to name our son. I don't know if you are gonna be like you say you are. I cant have a job because I am on and off bed rest, have no way to get money for things that I need. I am so confused and hurt. Apart of me hates you for what you've done to me but then another part of me wishes you would just come back and make it all OK again.

SORRY GUYS THIS ISN'T REALLY A POEM ITS JUST HOW I FEEL. BUT IF YOU COULD SEND ME A COMMENT THAT WOULD BE NICE..