Deaths door

As i sit beside u
watching u sleep
listening to every breath
seeing ur strength leave u forever
i know death is on its way

afraid to hold ur hand
for disturbing ur peaceful state
i know what lies in wait for u
all the arguments of wanting to go home to ur garden bcuz ur fine
vanish in the wind
ur spirit dissipates

now only a shell remains
but still u r here
u no longer eat
just sleep
with morphine coursing through ur veins

i remember those hours
either by ur side or sitting in the lounge scared to lose u
but knowing its coming

soon u don't wake to our touch
nor our voice
then that day
we delayed visiting u
then came the call they u were slipping fast
race against time to ur side

time won again
too late for a final goodbye
in the waiting room crying
i see ur son my dad coming
i race downstairs to meet him
still tears flowing

when he learns of ur departure
he embraces me with a she is in a better place know and she is in peace

it doesn't help ease the sadness
but i go back to ur room to say goodbye even though its too late

i remember ur face, eyes closed
hair flat on ur pillow
ur teeth replaced and ur mouth open
ur body starts to get cold with each passing second
nothing more to do but go home and cry myself to sleep

on the last journey home from seeing u
i remember u and have a tribute in my mind
knowing that ur body will soon be burned and ashes scattered