Family is ashamed of me..

Mommy said its time to go somewhere
somewhere i dont want to go
because what im doing to the family, and how its not fair
im tearing them apart slow

because of me, daddy to starting drink
he cant handle the things i do
so his breath of whiskey always stinks

because of me, Mommy always cries
she cant even wear a fake smile
her frown is no longer a disguise.

because of me, big brother moved out
cant stand the senseless fights we have
no longer wants to hear me shout

mommy said its time to go somewhere
somewhere i dont want to go
because of what im doing to the family, and how it isnt fair
im tearing them apart slow

my cutting and E.D is killing them faster
than its actually killing me!
they arnt strong enough to keep me around...
but they`ll miss me once im dead under ground

(im so sorry for all of you who have been effected by my cutting and E.D.)