I'm barely breathe
Struggling to stand on my own
Telling myself; all is fine
When I'm crumpling inside this time around
I've been pretending
This I know
Telling you all you want to hear
Living in a land of make believe
A fairy tale that seems easier to live
Then the facade of a life I've been living
You say all you think I need to hear
Speaking words so elegantly spoken
Phrases all said before
So well rehearsed
That you don't know it's the same road once again
You just see the sun
The blue sky
Never the rain
Never the pain I carry inside
It's a battle I keep fighting time after time
Letting you believe I win every time
When I just smile and hide . . .
All you can't see
I tell myself; don't cry
Don't stumble
Don't let them see . . .
Then you look my way with a smile
And I can't help but pretend once again for you,
To hide away the darkness that shallows me whole
To be all you need to believe me to be
I've been fighting these tears
Burying them behind this smile I wear
Bottling the pain way
Just to tell you . . .
All you need to hear
But this battle deep inside. . .
I'm losing this time around.
