Forever the Same

I want to stand up
I want to believe
That everything you are
Is everything that will never leave

I'd like to pretend
That this is real
And not know that when I open my eyes
Everything will be gone, except for how I feel

Because I dream of you every night
I need to, It makes me feel right
You are everything that I need
But you are also the very reason why I bleed.

You don't mean to do it,
or maybe you do
but whatever the answer,
I still need you.

I don't want to need you
I fight so hard not to
So will you let me go for now
Or could you just forget me somehow?

I need to leave you in my past.
Your hurting me and I refuse to let this pain last
So goodbye and have a great life
I will remember everything, but mostly that knife.

The one that I would grab
every time your words took their stab.
And I'd run it right across my arm
and It felt so good, even though I was causing myself harm.

Because the hurt made the pain inside go away
but it would always be back the next day.

So here it ends.
I'm done with your game.
If only you could change,
But I know you'll forever be the same.