Right here
I take the Blade
Across my wrist
Slowly I see it
The crimson mess of blood
As it slowly flows
I slowly slip away
Continuously it flows
It won't stop now
Its an a roll
I remember thinking
"Where am I?
Am I dead yet?"
But I wasn't
I was in the hospital
Needles stuck in me
Right and left
I was in a lot of pain
But in a way
It felt good
Sitting in the hospital bed
The nasty cream colored one
I thought about everything
I thought about my Life
About what I was to do now
All my life
I wanted to be somebody
I wanted to do something
Something that would be appreciated
Something like writing a book
Or writing poetry
But I don't think that will happen
Everything is different now
I don't know if I have what it takes
I don't know if I can do it anymore
I know all my life I have wanted to
But my life hasn't been for that long
I am only 16 years of age
And I already hate life
I have tried to end it
But I just couldn't do it
Because of you I couldn't
How does it feel to be my life saver?
You and Lu are truly my life savers
Even if u know it or not
I love you both
With all my heart
