Mixed Emotions ..true story

A hand raises shyly in the back of the class
as the teacher calls out his last name
Blue eyes and a huge smile I knew the shyness wouldnt last
instead he was destined for fame

Not noticing till later that week
at a student council election when there they called his name
he came on stage with a big smile and a great speech
suddenly something in the atmosphere changed

Joining a new church I wanted to meet the people
so youth group is where I ended up one Monday night
Down a hill and to the left take a left after the steeple
and there he was to what I guess was my delight

With another amazing smile and a warm welcome
hes incredibly nice and extremely funny
not one point in that night did I ever feel numb
Its as if on that cold winter night it turned sunny

Now with youth group every Monday night
weve become close and surely great friends
but here comes the story that gave me a fright
and made me think this great friendship would come to an end

Suddenly word was that he had strong feelings that I didnt feel
although at one point I questioned if we would ever be more
but now I dont want to open my heart from him to steal
instead came mixed emotions that made me clueless to my hearts core

I imagined dark nights of me in your arms
but dreaming of the future could not solve now
dreaming of fake feelings could only bring harm
and our wonderful friendship would be turned upside down

Then I thought horrible things about him
how saying looks dont matter isnt true
while knowing all these thoughts would make him grim
I couldnt act I had to state what was true

Hes the kind of guy I can take home to my parents
straight As kind and thoughtful
and I know its not fair but its the feelings God sent
those of friends and only friend even through the long hull

So even if I dont feel as you do
dont doubt our friendship
because ill never turn my back on you

This is a true story between me and my friend Mike It was so hard to go through because i was so afraid of hurting him writing was all i could do Please vote and comment