With out a dad

by Alix   Mar 21, 2004


Daddy u left before i was born
now u leave me here to morn

daddy u left me with thoughts i shouldn't have, thoughts like why did u go?
what do u look like?
am i the reason u left?
can u heard me cry at night or r u just depth?

daddy did u ever want to see me?
did u ever want to she the girl that i was going to be?

will u ever know how my life goes?

do u know the pain i feel ?
do u know that it is inc-read ably real?

do u know that i wonder about Ur face?
do u know i wonder how u found a woman to replace mommy?

i feel as if when u left u didn;t know that what u did to mommy was real

u had another family, but now they're r gone, what did u do to them, why did Ur family say so long?

why can't the cops find u, if they where able to find u i might be able to say "i love u"

i might be able to see Ur face, and i might not feel so replaced......

i might fell that i wasn't the reason why u left, daddy why can't u hear me cry r u depth?

why aren't u here hold me night, helping me when i am sick, kissing me good night?

why did u leave me and mom, why didn't u say good bye to me or say so long?

why did u leave me with all these questions, that yet have not be answered?

and why wont mom tell me any thing about u, is she scared to? did u do some thing to her that i should know about? if not....why did u have to go and leave me without--- a dad?

i have a new father now, and he loves me so, but u left me for years with a dad tho. the years that where suppose to be the best years of my life, and leave me to cry all those nights? i don't talk much about my child hood because it is some thing i would like to for get, and now daddy reading this, now do u regret leaving me.

i have a few problems with guys i am so scared when i get i guy that they will leave me just like u did, daddy how could u leave me i was just a little kid.

all those years without knowing the meaning of daddys day, all those times, where i didn't have a dad with me so i could play, daddy if u knew then who i would turn out to be would u have left me that day?

if u knew that i would have problems with knife's and that i would have a problem with saving my life....would u have left me, don't u see, it is u i needed, i needed u to be with me.

but now Ur gone and there is nothing i can do, if i did die soon, i might have to blame it all on u!

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  • 20 years ago

    by cait

    haha ure just jealous cuz she can write better than you sarah!! hahahha

  • 20 years ago

    by Alix

    thanx so much every one, it is hard to cope with ur dad leaving no matter who u r.i know that no matter what kind of step father u have he still can't replace ur ONE true father. i am glad that i have always had my mother by me.....it is kinda sad because when i show people this poem they almost start to cry, and they ask if this is my life, and they tell me it is sad.it is just good to know that i have others in this world that i can talk to, that is always a good thing.my mom has told me that it wasn't my fault that he left it was just that he didn't love HER , but for some reason she wont even show me a photo of him, i go threw the fiels concerning me just to get his name, the worste part is that no one knows where he is. they can't find him.....he had another family, he had other childern that i will never see....his wife ran away with another man and she took her childern,after that no one knew where he was,i just dont know if i should hate my father or if i should love him because he is my father

  • 20 years ago

    by Robyn Park

    Alix, just like you told Jade, you werent the reason that your dad left. I understand that it is your way of coping...but its still not good. I try to think of it being my fault that my dad left...but i know it isnt true. cutting yourself and stuff can make some pain go away...but it brings back more and more pain. I understand what you are going through...even though i dont claim to know how you feel...there is a difference there. lolz. i just want you to know that your dad leaving had nothing to do with you. Dont ruin your life because your dad left...thats his loss. Even though there is a gaping void where he should be, it hurts just as bad to think that he left because of you? I dont know. im rambling. But you are an awesome poet. email me at robyn_ohio@hotmail.com if you ever wanna talk

  • 20 years ago

    by Jade Castle

    Alix i hop u see this...um yea this does relate to me alot and iT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT MY DAD LEFT ME I LOVE THIS POEM!!!!

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