Sickening

I know that I am ill
My mind wont let her go
I care still
And it hurts me so

She does not want me
I know this already
I did not want her to want me
I would likely hurt Jamie

I have and now our friendships gone
The only thing that I care for
Is completely gone
And it is torture

She did the right thing
I know she did
Im too depressing
And I sadness is all I did

I wanted to help
That is all I wanted
But I need the help
And cant get what I wanted

I will stay away for her
I will become a memory
In her life to please her
I will stay out of her story

I pushed to much
And made her sad
And now I feel too much
I did not want to make her mad

I am sorry for everything
And the feeling is sickening