My final hour

In my final thoughts after slicing into my arm for the 10th time
reading my books of depression as they dont help me at all
my emotions are left broken, fallen, left to crawl

When my death comes to me in silence
As my final moments last forever
my heart dies slowly and painfully
watching it drift away
never seeing the light of day.....once again

and for my lasting pain leaves its marks across my body
As I die slower, my blood spews out...spilling down me slowly
A red river across my broken body and shatter soul
nothing I do will ever fill this empty hole

My death will only bring joy to those filled with hatred for me
And to those that loved me will cry at my demise
When I feel low I get high
masking my pain through something green and tiny
Laughing, death stands behind me

My hour is nye and my last breath shall leave my cold lips
As I kiss life good bye
sending pain to those who shared good and bad times with me
I hope that one day they can see....

my pain was my ending to the beginning
the death to my life
the darkness to my light
slowly fading away
my final seconds in my final night....