How Much I Cared

Time has passed
And I feel I am standing still
Things have happened
And I'm not even aware of them
People walk through me
And notice I'm not even there
I feel as they are looking at me
But see nothing but thin air
I look down at me
I'm in my dearest red blood
A gun in my hand
I dislodge it
And let the bullets fall
None..
None at all fall
I close my eyes
And tears begin to fall
Across my cheeks
I remember now
Remember so very well
How I died
I couldnt take the pain
You have put me through
You should've known very well
I gave up
When you made it hard to live
Chaos begins
People run
Someone screams
Blood trickles down the hall
And trickles past me
I walk, following the blood
I find me
Laying there
A gun in my hand
And blood all over me
I so badly wanted to jump in my body
Right then and there
I left someone who really cared
I left Betty
How could I be so selfish
To not care how others would be affected
I died because I could\'nt take the pain
I should\'ve lived
To lead the bad away from Betty
Now I\'m just dead
And shes there holding me in her arms
Not knowing how much I cared and loved her as my sister