My true confession

It hurt you more
More than it hurt me
I know I was dumb
That's what held me back

It was you who stopped me
From ending everything
You gave me hope
Something to look forward to

I know it's not much
I have to tell you face to face
I know when I say it you don't believe
But this is how I express things

It's harder face-to-face
Cause then I would be shy
But I don't want this between us
So this is how I tell you

I am lucky to have you in my life
If I didn't it would be worse
You held me back
From attempting hardcore

I need you in my life
Now I am glad it didn't end
Its getting better
If I did you wouldn't be my friend