I'm Happy

I want to run away
Get out of this place
I don't want to look back
I don't want any memories
They're all too bad
I feel like dieing
I feel like death
Noone gets me
Noone knows
The pain I've been through
The pain I've caused
I have no future
I have no life
All I want to do
Is grab that knife
Pick it up and hold it close
For this has been my only friend
It knows my secrets
It knows my fears
It\'s been there for me when noone else was
Slowly lower the blade to my wrist
Gently press it into the skin
And with one quick jerk
I see red
Feels so good
I feel so free
The life is slipping right out of me
Lying on the cold, hard bathroom floor
Thinking this is the greatest moment of my life
I hear a knock and a jiggle of the knob
I hear my mom say 'Honey, are you okay?'
I can't speak, I can only smile
With all that I have
I say 'Dont worry, Mom. Everything is fine now. I love you'
I hear her footsteps fade away
And the last words ring in my ears
\'Honey are you okay?'
If she only knew
That the last cut took away all of my feelings
Only one remains
The one I never knew
I close my eyes and take it in
WIth one last breath
I realize-I say what I feel
'I'm Happy'