Now that you're gone

What do I do now that you're gone?

Well,
When there's nothin else going on
Which is quite often
I sit in a corner and
I cry
Until I'm too numbed
to feel.

Paralyzed.
Motionless.
For a while,
nothing moving,
inside and out.

Then I think,
how much I miss you.

Then I feel pain,
fear,
loneliness,
desolation.

Then I cry
Until I'm too numbed
to feel.

INteresting pastime