It Hurts... But Always Will

It's so hard to say good-bye
I want to break down, I want to cry...

I found an old picture of us in my room yesterday,
I was speechless, what could i possibly say?

You were with my close friend in it,
But now who are you in pictures with?

I lay flowers down next to your grave,
Looking at your stone... Trying to be brave...

This everlasting candle supposedly won't ever die,
Neither will the love in my heart ever pass by...

The memory of you lasts in me forever,
It's no fair, we should be together!

You're my first love, but only one!
Now what do I do when your life is done???

I can't go on when you're so far away,
Plus another fact is, you're gone and I have to stay!

I don't want to go on without you here with me!
Everything you gave to me made me happy!!!

People ask me if I'm OK,
I shake my head yes with nothing to say...

How can I be OK when I'm in love with you?
You told your parents and friends that you loved me too...

I can't do anything now,
But I'll keep going somehow...

It just hurts so bad to smile back and not see your face,
It hurts so bad that you're in a different place...

It hurts so bad like a knife through my soul,
It hurts so much, in my heart with this hole...

It hurts so much that I'm placed in fear,
It hurts so much my dear...

It hurts SO MUCH but i love you still,
It hurts so much, but i guess it always will...

R.I.P. Matthew - getting through 2 years without you was a major wake-up call. I miss you so much. It isn't any fair but life isn't...