Away Message...

It's sick to know that a person can make me feel this way. after all we went through- after everything that was said. i couldn't sleep last night knowing you don't hate me, but dislike me enough to say what you said...I'm not apologizing for what made you upset, because maybe, just maybe you felt .01/100,000,000,000 as hurt as me. if only you knew all the pain i had to go through. only the strongest people make it out alive...and i don't think I'm strong enough...if only you knew the thoughts I'm having day to day. the fight i have to put up, blocking every memory out of my mind. do you even know how much i cried? it's scary to know that someone like you makes me feel this way. and i hope you're happy for what you did.