The Downfall

I have so much weight upon my shoulders I can barely move
So many expectations to live up to
There is so much want for me to be perfect but that is something that I am not and will never be
I can see myself slowly falling
My life is going downhill and its my fault
The choices that I keep making are leading me to this
I fear that if I keep making these choices terrible things will happen
Where will I stop
Will I even stop at all
Yet I keep getting away with it
Why stop when I'm having fun
This is what I always wanted
To have fun and have friends
I never thought I would end up like this
I always told myself I wouldn't let these things happen but now that they have they don't seem that bad
Though in the long run they might bring me to my end