My mistakes

I've lived all my life in a big mistake
I've been born in mistake and raised in mistake
my youth was spent in mistake awaiting the unknown
I've matured by mistake and before I've spent all my youth
I've been protecting my siblings and raising them to be free
to be what they want to be
I've been punishing my dad by not seeing him and not caring about what he did to us
I've been rescuing my mom from sure death in hell but now my job has ended
but i still live in mistake
mistakes of the past that still hunts me like a vengeful spirit
i wish i could banish this spirit
but i fear that would be my greatest mistake
because this spirit is guiding me to the right track
guiding me to the future of my success
it reminds me of what my life was before and what i must do to change my fate
it reminds me of all the lessons that i have learned
lessons that i was fortunate to have been taught and learned
my life has been a wonderful experience and an educational journey
if someone asked me to live it over and over again i swear i will
because i want to learn more and more of the world's secrets
i will not live in a mistake!
i will always be grateful to that spirit!
i will continue to what the future holds for me with blind trust!
and i shall teach my spirit ti my children
and tell them of what life means and how to be free of all the mistakes of the world