Fear builds
inside of me
crazy thoughts race
but by the end of the day
the pain is too hard to face
i choose my path
on who i like
who I'm obsessed with
i know what happens
but i have to ask what if
i swear, i fight
with everything i have
until i can get what i want
i attack my self
so often
i make it so blunt
afraid of the truth
of no one loving me
i will b alone forever
unless i feel that sacred thing
i will never see a lover
so many people
are in my mind
usually all the time
when i see them
i feel happy
but when there not I'm saddened hate myself
i call names
mostly vulgar ones
they go In
very deep
jealousy burns like suns
