I want to know and that is why I ask...I love you and I am in love with you. I need to know that you are in love with me.

Without a single doubt..

See that would be so much easier to believe if you hadn't screwed her. You say that you tried to spare me which means that you weren't going to tell me. You were going to lie to me and tell me that you loved me while you held some other girl. I can't trust you and I can't believe you anymore.

Go find him, smile be happy..
trust me, he's better.. he is not the infection that i am.. save yourself trouble.. just let me go...

I have let you go...don't worry. It's just that I can't fully let go until I know that you will be safe. I have to know that you are safe from yourself...that you won't hurt yourself. Be someone, for me. Make something of yourself. I want you to be happy...more than you know. I can't believe what you have done and who you have become, but I don't know that person. I don't know who Jonathan is. I know Jack. I wish you could have just stayed that way in my mind. I wish that you could have just stayed smiling and happy. Like on the dock, the beach, and the steps outside of our building. I wish that I could feel Jack's hand in mine once again. Not reading Jon's stupid words on the screen.

Look, i don't want to lose you as a friend, we've been through too much together.. don't let me destroy us.. well, I screwed that up.. but, still please. be my friend.

He still lives.
jack..
its your fault.
hell, im glad to blame you for this..
sure i screwed her, but still... you had him to hold on to, also...

I want to be friends....more than anything else...but....you just killed me. It's so hard to take that feeling that I had for you, that love that I had for you, and realize that you don't love me. Then on top of it you want me to try to be your friend. Someday, I hope that I might be able to see Jack again. I am almost positive that it will never happen, but maybe. If he still lives...I just think that Jon has already taken over. He has already corrupted MY Jack. He has killed my Jack. I miss the guy that I used to know.

In time... the shell shall come off.. I swear.. for you.

Scatterd about are little comments.. poems of sorts.. can you find them ?

WTF is that supposed to mean. I can find the comments, but the poems...whatever.....sorry about the comment I left on your latest poem. I was just mad. Really mad. I think I meant it though. Who knows?

I dont even get, what comment your talking about.. but yeah.. you think you meant it.. sure.. way to be confident..
slowly im comin out of my shell, out from behind jon's back.. i hid cause i was scared..

Come to school much.. aha, im such an ass.. but yeh they made us come to school on a freaking friday..
but, yeah..

We just had this huge ice storm so now I am at the library. We have no power at our house. You're coming out of your shell...good...I guess...Does that mean that you are becoming Jack again or.....? I just don't know what to think any more.....

"I never really wanted you to see the darkest side of me that I keep locked inside of me so deep. It always seems to get to me. I never really wanted you to go. SO many things you should have known. I guess for me there's just no hope. I never meant to be so cold."

"You love me, but you do\'t know who I am. I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand. You love me, but you don't know who I am. So let me go. Just let me go."

Every song that i listen to reminds me of this screwed up life that you have helped me to build. I can't get away. I don't want to get away.

Just...Love Her.

Look,
im changing again.. for the better..
i push everyone away.. just for them to see that i will never hurt like that again..
nothing like this will happen again.. i know we didn't talk for six months.. and then shit hit the fan again..
but..
just stand next to me, and love him..

sorry to hear about your house, we got part of that storm...
but yeah..
idk..
love.. him.,

But I love you. More than anything. I want things between me and him to work, but then I know that they probably won't. They say that you only find love once. You only find one person who truly completes you and understands you. I'm just worried that since I found that...maybe that's it for me. This is just the worry of a stupid girl. Maybe since I loved you so much, I won't be able to love again. I'm sorry...So many things that I shouldn't tell you...I just can't help myself. I just want you to know everything.

"But somewhere beyond happiness and sadness, I need to calculate what creates my own madness. And I'm addicted to your punishment, and you're the master, and I am craving this disater.

How many times have you screwed her?