Over and Over

I sit alone, by myself, And i feel lost. So i try to clear my mind, but all i can think about is the stuff i wish never happened.

All the memories keep coming back. and i try to block them out, but they wont disappear, and i can see them happening again and again. like someones there rewinding them over and over.

its so bad the pain is almost unbearable, and no one knows how i feel, theres no one there to hear my cry, so i cry to an angel from above. but still the pain remains.

its almost like no one cares, but deep down inside i know theres someone out there, so i look for someones help, for someone to stop the memories, but when i talk to someone it just makes the memories replay over and over.

no matter how hard i try, i cant change those memories, some good and some bad, but know matter what they will always be there, whether i want them to or not.

now ive come to realize, theres only one thing to help me. Because no one can change how i feel. all i need is my guardian angel that replays my memories over and over.

In Loving Memory of Suzanne Thames.