Every night before i go to sleep
i reminisce on all the stuff that happened
the good and the bad the happy and the sad
wishing for the life i never had
as my emotions tangle I\'m so afraid of the future life
will it be worth the strife
as i began to taste the past
every memory down to the last
how could this happen
and only now i finally see
what it worth..nothing
are they happy now
the pain Ive been through
has now left me so depressed
my mind is so messed
as tears form behind my eyes
my whole life seems like one big lie
as i pretend to be the one who doesn't show my fear
will my cries be heard or am i left in vain
for theres so much thats hard to explain
Im hurting deep inside my shell
and no one can tell
as i remember more i can smell the hate
of what once was a pleasant smell
back when i couldn't tell the difference
how did i last so long
why did everything go so wrong
as i sit here i now have the future to fear
sometimes i wonder if ill ever make it there
