Baby boy why? :(

Its hard for me sitting here
Running down my face is a small tear
Of sadness and joy
Because ill always love you my baby boy

But when you told me your with her
Things just turned into a blur
Even though I'm very happy for you
Deep inside I'm so sad and blue

Now when i look at you i feel different
Knowing your in a whole new commitment
But there you are holding her hand
And I'm still here trying to understand

The smile on my face may not be real
Because I'm trying so hard to hide the way i really feel
As long as your happy ill say nothings wrong
As long as theres a smile on your face, ill try to move on

From the moment i saw you
I knew this was true
Yet once again I'm wrong
And i have to learn to stand strong

My love for you is blowing away like sand
But i still wish that was me holding your hand
But now i have to say that this is the end
Please never make me go threw this again