The Pain He Causes

I know the pain hurts. I know its hard. You've been going on like this for so long. Now your thinking you wont survive. You just want to cry. You want to show him and tell him what he did to you. So you try and try to tell him, but you think your just making a fool out of yourself, but really your not. He's just acting like that so his friends wont see him cry. He can hide it on the outside, but in the inside pain and sorrow is rushing through him so fast. He doesnt know what to say next. He says the wrong thing. You try so hard not to cry, but you cant hold it back this time. Every tear you cry is every little bit of pain he made you feel. You dont know what has gotten into him, but whatever it is you want it to go away. After all the pain he caused you he calls you on the phone. He acts like nothing happened. You dont say a thing. He says your beautiful and that you mean everything to him. He makes you feel better, but the very next day he makes the pain come back. Now your so curious. If i mean everything to him then why. oh why does he make me cry.