How i wish i didnt feel

To her my darkest feelings I owe
But I know I was forgotten long ago
She stole my love so easily, I wasnt even looking
Catching me by surprise, she rips out my useless heart
It wasnt like I was using that anyway
But she left me, and didnt care to return what was once mine
Maybe ill forget her... maybe all I need is time
Now im an empty shell of a person
Sometimes I hate her for doing this to me
For stopping me from being all I could be
I see her in my dreams
My inner fantasies that come to play while my eyes are sealed tight
I long for her to be mine, but she is someone elses
The dream fades and im left to cringe in the sting of reality
I catch her watching me sometimes
And I know she could have loved me
Our eyes meet and we both turn away
Easier than staring into the eyes the soul mate that turned her back on me
Now I will forever be alone
I sit next to her just hoping to feel her warmth on me
Or just to catch her sent
Sometimes she lays her head on my shoulder
I wish to stay like this forever, just to hold her
But I see the eyes watching my every move and I stay still
Hoping he will go away
I would make her happier then he ever could
But ill never be given the chance
I will love her for the rest of my days
Because she refuses to give back my heart