If Only

If only, if only
Everything was so right
and it flowed so good
and it wasn't all lies.
If only, if only,
I died after death
and my heart forgot to love
and my soul finally gave up.
I hate the decency of some people.
How we work so hard to fall so quickly.
I don’t know what to say
because I lost track of words
and my heart isn’t so sweet
like apple cider or cherry pie.
So, love.
What a toxic poison.
What a way to live,
And what a way to die.