I have kept my self
Within these walls;
Locked my heart;
Willfully ....
With a thousand chains;
Reminded myself...
The pain of yester years
I was in a state of neglect;
I had fallen deep;
The devil has taken me...
My life was a misery;
Till I found you;
I knew that
True love came:
My feelings are true;
And they seldom lie;
But I can't accept ;
These feelings;
I am confused;
I doubted myself;
Can I still love?
I knew for sure;
My true feelings;
where my heart belonged;
But deep in me;
I do not wish to live in regret;
I can't deny my love;
But I am keeping it;
All to myself;
I fought against
My own passions;
I shut the lights;
And in silence I cried;
The darkness told me;
That you deserved better;
I felt sorry for myself;
Never had the courage;
To love you...
and what have I become?
I am no longer the man
I used to be...;
Help me my Lord,
Forsake me not;
Give me the courage;
I do not wish to live in regret;
Forever in eternal pain;
I need to stand up strong;
As a man;
And to love again...
