Now

I'm different now
Not the same
I've changed
Not for the better

Its because of him
Ishould've never gotten involved
Now I'm not here
Not me
Not alive

I'm walking around
With no emotions
No one can fix it
I'm too far gone

I just want caught
Pulled back
Back to friends
Back to life
Back to me

I want to smile
I want to laugh
I want to dance
I want to sing
I want to do these things without having to fake it

I want to go back
Now I have nothing
Now I find nothing
Now I am nothing

I want to have me
I need to have me
I need my old life
And I need it
Now

© Emily Andriko