Sad Goodbye

A little disagreement
Sometimes a meeting of the mind
Occasionally we make it
Sometimes my past consumes my time

Are you my destiny
Or have you become my past
Can you be my future
Will Brian's memory elapse

Does your call of duty
Take precedence
And is the meaning of our love
Seemingly past tense

Even though your work is important
Should I put my life on hold
Do I have to stand below you
And continue to play your role

To become an officer's wife
But feel like I will never stand above
To always be beneath you
As I show you everlasting love

Is this dress cut too high
Are your eggs too white
Did I act foolishly
When I had too much fun last night

To give away who I am
Just to be an extended part of you
Is quite the sacrifice
I am not sure I love you too.

My little boy named Grant
Is the priority in my life
He always will stand above
Your duty and your sacrifice

I understand your mission
I know that you could die
But my first priority
Is my beautiful blue eyed guy

The little man looks up to me
I am his tower of strength
He will stand above anyone
Regardless of their rank

I am not sure I can commit
At this time in my life
There is too much activity
And uncertainty filling my insides

Grant needs my care
I am his sole provider
I am his mommy and his daddy
There is not room for outsiders

He depends on me
Like the Marine Corp
Depends on you
We each share calls of duties
But we fill different shoes

You fight for our country
I am battling a single war
You fight for our freedom
I protect the little boy that I adore

Different paths are the chosen
Not any fault of one another
But our crossroads are not meeting
Enough to vow our lives to each other

Sadly I cannot commit
To your sacrifice
My little boy comes first
And he needs my family in his life

I am not at a turning point
To give away my heart
I am not ready to travel
I cannot make a brand new start

So walk away from me today
And promise me that you won't cry
And when you go to war for us
Remember how much you touched my life

I am sorry that the outcome
Was not what you were counting on
But you are a strong soldier
And your memory will linger on

This poem is written for my friend Megan. It may not hit the nail on the head but I think it is pretty close.