Realization

Tell me, God, have I gone insane?
Am I deemed worthy of using this name?
I beg of you, please tell me just this,
For without him, I can never be the same
These tears are what I cry

His smile makes me wonder
What he is thinking
Am I ever on his mind?
And when I see his sea green eyes, I am wishing
Maybe I should die

And without his touch,
I am lost
Bathing in conscious misery
For eternity my soul has been sold,
My heart is the only true cost
Of this I cannot lie

But, oh Dear God, he is just a boy
And you are vast as can be,
I shall depend on you, and only you,
For who else will be my joy?
This is my final goodbye.