I dress in disquise from day to day
Nobody knows what I really wanna say
A darkened light thats never raised
Days that never go my way
Future plans, Ive decided
I will never show, its easier to hide it
Through my eyes the world is black and white
I can shut out myself with a flick of the lights
Doesnt bother me
That he will never get to see
deeper into the soul I hold
Cuz somehow I seem to break that mold
When I laugh outside, I cry inside
I say im speaking my mind but Its always a lie
Dont believe a word I say
Its never how I truly feel
A loner throught the day
Never shows whats real
Tired of being depressed
Embaressed to say Im still obsessed
Cant figure out
What hes all about
Cant hold him down
No fake smile, I just frown
Maybe someday Ill come outta my shell
Stop being the child from hell
But not now
Im not ready
I dont know how
I dont live my life how I want to
Im the girl they will never know
