First Love's Vow

Standing under the stars.
Staring at the moon.
Having no idea,
It would happen this soon.

Having some troubles,
Feeling so bad.
Yelling in class,
Making me mad.

Thought it'd work out,
We'd just have a chat.
Soon to find out,
It's much deeper than that.

Says we're drifting apart,
Not hanging out.
Trying hard not to cry,
Trying hard not to shout.

But I'm fighting for him,
Why won't he for me?
Why doesn't he get it?
What doesn't he see?

He took my whole heart,
In fact, he took more.
He promised he wouldn't,
That's what he swore.

That my heart wouldn't break,
This time it'd be good.
Did he mean something different?
I guess I misunderstood.

It's been only eight months,
Needed only four more.
A year was so simple,
But we hit the floor.

Ignored it too long,
Thought it'd all go away.
Should've kept my mouth shut,
Maybe then you'd have stayed.

"Yes or no, is this over?"
Why'd I have to say that?
Would you not have said yes
If I just shut up and sat?

Who's fault is this now?
What did I do wrong?
Am I not good enough?
Have I not been all along?

I just can't stop crying
I wish that you knew
Just how much I love you,
I promise it's true.

Everyone, everything,
You're in every small place.
Every corner, every room,
All I see is your face.

Memories everywhere,
Pictures to see.
Tears to dry up,
Hearts with one beat.

Wherever you are,
And whoever's nearby,
When you feel your heart beat,
Or look up in the sky,

I guarantee I'll be there,
You'll think of me plenty.
Blood pumps through your veins,
But inside I'm empty.

My heart is now yours,
And only yours to keep.
It's buried inside you,
In your soul down deep.

I don't know what I'll do,
Or when I'll stop crying.
It may take me years,
But I swear that I'm trying.

You will not forget me,
I'm part of you now.
First love's are forever,
And that is my vow.