You and me

My 1 biggest fear happens everytime you pull me near you, where our two bodies almost touch and I grab onto the crutch, you lean in to kiss me but everytime I stat to get away & I try to pull away but I don't want you to notice so I start to sway, so your hands start to stray from my face, moving down to just feel around as we get into it. I wanna get out so I push you away and you get angry. You claim I misled you but all the misunderstand was yours!