Tired of it all!
No matter what I do,
The ones I care for the most I seem to disappoint.
It is not good enough that I try to help them,
It hurts worse because I love them so.
They do not know how deep the cuts in my heart are,
I am drowning in my own blood.
Tired of it all!
One moment I am feeling half way decent,
The next moment wondering why I exist.
These feelings just do me in and leave me
Wishing I was not here.
Why do I have these feelings,
It is like I have no control of my emotions anymore.
Tired of it all!
I know I was not this way eleven months ago,
Before the accident and she suddenly left us.
When will it end though,
These feelings of emptiness, loneliness,
And little or no self worth.
I am tired of it all.
