I tried so hard to rise above the sterotype
And make everyone that I love proud
But here I am added to the percentage
That has fallen right into the crowd
I let go of my bright future
And watched it go down the drain
And now I'm sitting here drowning in tears
While wallowing in self pity and pain
How could I have been so dumb, so naive
And given in when I knew it was wrong?
Why did I become so weak by your touch
When before you came I was so strong?
Now because of my infatuation
With a man that I thought I knew
I'm sitting here three months pregnant
Lost, not knowing what to do.
Slowly as everything falls apart around me
My future begins to unwind
And all that's left in front of me
Is the urge to push rewind
I need to go back to before
To place where I was free
But instead my life will be locked down
Forever being held in captivity.
I wrote this when I found out I was pregnant... I look back on it now and think that I didn't know how lucky I was. My son is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I thank god for him everyday.
