Not ever

I never understood
y i was neglected
was it cuz im horribled
not what u expected?

mommy please forgive me
cuz i have been so mean
buh u provoked me by
actin as if my pain was unseen

i kno im a disapointment
cuz i let life get to me
please forgive my actions
oh will u please hear my plea

i kno u love me deep inside
u jus dont kno what to do
but emotion abusing me isnt the answer
jus understand what i have been through

loving me is hard and i kno that well
your tuants jus slice my heart
they get to me and stick to my soul
they seem to tear me apart

jus try n love me for who i am
nddont try to change me
it ll happen on its own
do it even if u dont agree

love me now as i am
or lose me forever
cuz i might die tonight
and i wont hear u say u love me not ever