When Will I Find Serenity?

I wrote this one to speak my feelings, it may not flow as nice as others.

I close the door
and shut my eyes
I cannot take this anymore
It is you I've grown to despise

I need to let go,
the pain I need to free
I just wanted you to know
before I slip into eternity

You've hurt me more than words can say
my pain I cannot bear
this is why I must leave today
because you do not care

I take the knife and pierce my skin
my blood drains to the floor
my vision starts to blur and spin
my body is hurt and sore

I only wished you say the words
I often long to hear
but now you've missed your chance
that I had given you all year

someday you'll come to look for me
and here you'll see me lay
I've become one with serenity
for my pain has gone away