Lost

by Carisa   Nov 27, 2006


The pain of living without you is killing me slowly. I can't move. My body is shutting down. I eat and sleep, but even my dreams are filled with a darkness that could only have come from you. The dark is overwhelming and I know that I can't run from it.

This never-ending pain can't be destroyed. Maybe I bring it upon myself, for my restless thinking never ceases. I am forever turning memories over in my head and analyzing everything that you have ever said; hoping to find some light in the darkness that I now call home. So far, there is nothing.

I have learned to block out the words and thoughts of others. What they have to say is meaningless to me. The only sound that I long to hear is the sound of your voice once more. The other sight that I wish to see is your hand intertwined with mine. Until then, I try to convince myself that I am content with the ever-growing darkness.

Even as I write this, my mind is flooded with thoughts that do not belong to me. I do not know this person who has embodied me. I know not of this person who has lost all hope. Before you, I would have never let myself feel this way. I would have banished all these terrifying lost long ago. But now, I fear, I know no life before you. There is no way that I could be whole if I had never known you. And yet, after knowing you, I feel that there is no way that I can ever be whole again.

I am lost inside of myself.

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  • 16 years ago

    by Carisa

    You still love me???
    i really dont know what to say to that

  • I miss you.
    I still love you, even though you've moved on.

    ..
    Jack.

  • 17 years ago

    by Carisa

    People, like you, are supposed to just go on and keep hurting people....and forget the things that you have done. People, like me, are supposed to try and forget that you did what you did. You're not supposed to stay in my life, even in this little part of it. And I'm suppposed to have to keep begging you to get out of it. You were a mistake....a mistake that I want to completely forget.

  • That is impossible. You and I both know that..
    What are people to do..

  • 17 years ago

    by Carisa

    Just forget everything.....