The distain of the past will be erased by the over shadowing of love from my soul, not from my heart.. but the soul of this very beast.. I am here to help.. in anyway possible..
Love Allways.
Jack.

Wow, I can't believe that I was ever mad at you. I know that what I write can't be described as poems and they aren't very good, but I am so glad that I get to share them with you.
With my whole heart,
Jill

I was so naive...

I took advantage of you, your weakness.. i saw it in your eyes.. i was just trying to be nice in the first place, then i fell in love with you, i wanted you beacuse you were toying with norman, which pissed me off so i decided that i was going to make you love me back, i suceeded, then we had to go home, i never wanted to leave VA.. hell id do it all over agian, hell i may have even brought you with me, if i hadnt of met and fallen in love with her, id still be in love with you, dont get me wrong.. i care for you.. but your not here to hold on to..

I'm glad that you took advantage of me. I'm glad that you saw the weakness...yes, it was there. I was weak, and I was starving for someone. I don't know if I wanted you or just someone...I just hope that she is everything that you want. Unlike what you now are to me. I see the real you, now. And the more I see, the more I don't like it.

Be someone.

I would say that i want to go back, and do it all over again, but not if i dont get to love her..

i know that is messed around..
but, i fell in love with her, i dont know how...
i dont regret it,
i do feel bad about doing this to you, i didnt mean for things to turn out like this...
seriously.. not everyone is like me.. love him.. get to know him..
for me..
love somone, but me..
get to know somone that deserves you, cause you are great.. you are a wondeful person, and i wouldnt hesitate to fall in love with you again if i didnt love her..

seriously, do somthing with life dont dwell on me..
please..

you wanted me beacuse i was different than anything you have ever seen before, i was somthing outside the box.. somthing beside the reality of what you have experianced..

im sorry..

Don't be sorry. I'm tired of being mad at you. You were more than just someone that I had feelings for. You were my best friend. Can't it still stay that way?

Three Days Grace Kicked Ass!!!!!!

As long as it does not hurt or pain you..

You didn't hurt me.
I hurt myself.
I believed in something that wasn't real.

I don't feel pain anymore.

Your human, you do..
you can't deny that..
im not trying to be mean, but im speaking the truth and you know it..

BUT

I like sammichez

You are so Odd......

I feel the pain, but lets just pretend that I don't...

I know i'm odd..
and you still think that's it's funny..

but, you can change it.. to where you don't have to...
all you have to do is change your mind frame..
I figured out the reason why things happend the way they did... I wanted things to be us two. I wanted to actually have a future, but distance and my weakness for touch and compassion, and things of that nature ruined it all..

Again, weakness can over come strength or weakness can conqure the strong minded, or willed however you want to put it..

I'm being open and honest.. which I no longer know if it is a good thing, or not.. If not, just tell me to shut the hell up and I will go away, and make everything ok again..

The other day in the mail I got our picture, from the capital with the Ks. Senator..what's his face.. and yah, I saw you in it, and cried.. I began to look at the rest of the pictures, and just couldn't hold it back anymore..

I miss you..
I don't know if I should,
but I do.. I'm human too..

Allways..
Jonathan.

Wow...I wasn't expecting that at all.

I got that same picture on a drill weekend while we were in formation. I glanced at it and immediately saw your face. I cried too. And everyone saw me. lol...it sucked. Like i'm standing at attention with tears running down my face.

I want you to be able to be honest with me. This is a good thing. I'm happy now...I guess I'm stronger. I know that I have you to thank...or blame for it.

I'm glad that you miss me...and that you are telling me these things. But I truly believe that you could have tried for me. And I think for a while that you did.

I'm not mad anymore...about any of this. You can tell me anything. Just know that whatever you are feeling...I'm probably feeling the same thing.

I miss you.
But I love him.

Carisa

Im glad you love him.
that makes everything ok again, cause now i know that you are happy, and you are taken care of..

Im sorry about making you cry in formation, i know what that is like, i wish you all the best. also you can tell me anything to, im not going to run and tell anyone, hell who would i tell..
Allways.
Jonathan

Exactly, who would you tell? Oh well, there's not much to say here.....just bored...i have to leave for florida for like a week...dont even want to go.

Tell me exactly how you are doing.

Have to leave.. Like on assignment ?
You should take pictures and send sum to me :p
that would be totaly kewl :d

No...it wasn't on anything cool...just a gay family vacation. You really don't want to see pics of me...i dont look the same....im on myspace....but you wont be able to find the account i use. give me ur myspace thingy and then i can add you or something...idk

Myspace.com\your_king_of_hearts
is one of them..
yah

Coolie...gracias

Yupz..
you look..
just like i remember..
i know.
i am a freak..